the pause - intuitive writing

For some it is discomforting, for some it is resting,
Depending on where we are, at which evolution of life we are,
We find meaning in the pause...

Pause for me is slowing down,
Taking time to reflect & look back the distance I covered,
The memories I created, impact and adventures all the way,
Lessons learnt, connections formed, encountered and let go...

A voluntary pause is acceptable, but a sudden jolt,
A sudden pause without any warning sign is scary...
It invokes deep reflection; my ego gets threatened as my soul speaks now...

Divine pauses are my soul's reminder to me,
To get back on my path,
Do away with distraction and expand to my highest self;
Live my purpose...

In this pause, I find my materialistic existence to be futile,
I wonder what I have created! I wonder who am I being!
I feel lost, stuck, trapped, I feel out of this world,
I don't feel aligned, even in this quietness I am looking for a quite place...

A place that I can just sit & let life energy flow through me...
I am in the nothingness, and in a place that is beautiful but unfamiliar...
A place full of stars, light, joy....Where am I? Which part of the world is this?
I sat quietly and meditated there. I felt light and connected to my silence that reminded me of all possibilities that I and we all are...

Every part of me awakened and in this quietness I found all my answers, solutions to my issues, yet I struggle to be in this space...
I fear being left out in the materialistic world,
Out in the cold with nobody around me.
But as this life force will stop flowing through me, won't I be on my own again?!
In another world with no familiar face but just me, my new version of ego in my same soul?!

Is there a different world or it's the same world with me in different time & space?
A part of my disintegration in different human forms that is beyond my understanding!
My ego understands nothing of this, it doesn't want to know the truth; but my soul recognizes every face,
Every experience and so it is least bothered about what's next but enjoying this experience before it moves to another...

My ego is the fool in me who thinks it knows everything & has figured out everything,
But in reality it knows nothing...It is just caught up in the illusion,
It denies to see things as it is...Ah! That's why it does everything that it is doing...
It wears the mask so that it can't see and speak to the soul.
The soul is but the same, living its journey every time it regenerates into another mask....

Ego is the lie in us, the joker and the soul is the truth...
Joker juggles, soul enjoys;
Joker resists, soul surrenders,
Joker performs, dances, feels, finds, creates; the soul just lives and be...
The soul reminds our ego who it is, it keeps reminding & whispering...
Who we truly are, but the ego defies it and doesn't listen...

In a forced pause, our ego is bound to listen,
So, it finds it hard, discomforting and wants to escape...
Ego wants to be back to the normal which is actually the illusion, the abnormal, the lie...
The truth is in front of us only if we'll be open to receive it as it is...

Love & light,
Priyanka

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